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Saturday, July 18th, 2009
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10:54 am - Not All Who Wander Are Lost...
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So, yesterday, Sara and I went out with some old friends; Nick and Lisa.
I've known Nick since he first became friends with my brother David... like ... twenty years ago. Lisa is a more recent addition to the group, introduced through no small amount of drama and internet scandal. She's an awesome lady- her and Nick have been happily married for almost a year now.
Anyway, we went out to a Cuban restaurant that they really like, enjoyed food, good conversation, and general fun. We talked for an hour after dinner, and decided rather than ending there, we should go wander around downtown. Sometimes they have street fairs at night (I have no idea what the schedule is like).
Nick gives the best directions- they always run something like "Do you know where bar/restaurant/random location is? You go toward there, and then turn... south/east/west down the next street." But he and I know a lot of the same locations, so it works pretty well. So does following right behind them. :D
We found some free parking (between university and mission, on about 10th street, I think), and wandered over toward university, where nothing but random Friday bar scene was happening, so we turned around and headed back toward mission- specifically, the Mission Inn.
The Mission Inn was built in like 1860, originally just a local hostel or something made out of adobe brick. It's kind of connected with the founding of Riverside (where I live), and it's a southern California landmark. Apparently presidents travel there regularly- there are portraits of presidents from Taft to Cleavland, have Nixon and Bush, too. A really nice portrait of Reagan. And 'The President's Parlour,' which is some sort of fancy to-do room. Oh, and Nixon got married there. I didn't know that.
Anyway, I've never really wandered around the Mission Inn. I love architecture, I love old buildings, I love historical buildings, and religious buildings fascinate me. I'm not sure why I haven't ever had the urge to wander around it before, but I'm going to remedy that. Well, we did last night. I'm going to go back and continue the experience another time.
Of all of my friends (with varied personalities and problems), Nick is one of the few who loves to wander (my brother David is close up there, too). So we wandered. We found a bank of elevators, and shot up to the top floor.
There are a few rules to wandering a building like this one:
1.) Anything not locked is an invitation to enter.
2.) Anything I can climb over or open was not locked (I'm talking to you- painted shut gate that creaks from disuse, and 'exit only' door).
3.) Any sign that says 'Don't come in here,' and has dust on it is obviously outdated.
Anyway, with those rules in mind, we wandered the hotel. The hotel was built and expanded in stages, so none of the architecture matches up- there are columns over Spanish tile, Chinese figures in a mission-style hallway. The top floor is high roller territory, so there's a few suite rooms overlooking the main plaza, fountains, a rooftop garden, and three distinct towers (all locked, unfortunately). There are intricate hallways, uneven flagstones, half stairs going to nowhere, half doorways that goes nowhere- this place is awesome. I wish i had pictures to share- next time, I promise.
We wander around the complete top level of the hotel, up and down half-stairs that go to nowhere, and finally on the north side of the hotel, we find the rotunda- a full rotunda, just hiding in there. There are crests and symbols of the people who built the rotunda- crests of workman's unions, localities (De Anza was a popular one) masons, family crests of priests- I could have studied those for days, but we moved on. The Mission Inn, is of course, built around a catholic chapel, and we really wanted to see that (well, that and the catacombs beneath the hotel. I know, cool right?).
Between the top floor and the second floors are just boring normal hotel stuff- small rooms, low roofs, poorly ventilated hallways, big multipurpose rooms that smell stale. Oh, and a Buddhist temple, a Chinese pagoda-style plaza, and the plaza built over the top of the catholic church... but all of those were locked, and we couldn't get into them. Believe me, we tried.
The second floor is built more in the style of the outside of the mission, with beautiful woodwork, stone arches, and weird tiny servants doors that were basically meant to be used by servants cleaning the outside of the building. One of them was awesome- it had a clasp and bar system to keep it shut. It had also been painted shut, but if Sara and Nick hadn't yelled at me, I could have gotten it open. There was a bent iron spring that held the bar in place, so you had to slide that back, and then there was a fall-bar keeping the door closed, so I raised that. But it was painted shut, so I pulled both bars, and was tugging on the door when Nick and Sara yelled at me. So what if we were twenty feet from the front desk, and weren't supposed to be doing that? EXPLORING! (See previously stated rules).
Anyway, we tried to get into the Catholic church, but it was locked. One of the workers was cleaning up after a wedding that was there earlier in the evening, and we asked him if we could get in, but he didn't have a key, and told us to check with the front desk. Sara and Lisa were all wandered out by this point, so we left and had Dairy Queen, talking, laughing and eating ice cream, but I really really want to go back.
Next time, pictures of everything, I promise. Next time, chapel and an attempt to get into the catacombs!
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| Monday, July 6th, 2009
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8:29 pm
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"The spirit of resistance to government is so valuable on certain occasions, that I wish it always to be kept alive."
- Thomas Jefferson
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| Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
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7:41 pm - Ten Years
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Okay, so I've hit the ten year mark on my mission. About this time, ten years ago, I was living in Carlingford, New South Wales. It was cold, I was missing my Californian summer, and it was the best time of my life. Well, not that exact moment, but pretty much everything about Australia was awesome- this was just the start of it.
Anyway, I was reading over my mission alumni page, and it was pretty depressing. It seems like everyone I served around are doctors, lawyers, and executives. Parkin, the least pretentious person I've ever known (I've tried hard to be more like him, since I thought it was so cool), has posted that he is a Weber Bread Delivery man, but I happen to know he runs that store.
Anyway, seeing everyone (even the horrible people that I wouldn't talk to if I saw them again) succeed, made me feel a little inadequate. More than a little. A lot. So I spent some time feeling sorry for myself, and pretty much the last week wondering what I accomplished on my mission, and in the decade since then.
I worked hard, but I could have worked harder. I prayed hard, but I could have prayed harder. I wanted it bad, but ... I don't know, there were things I was unwilling to compromise on. Still are. So, was I a good missionary? The only stuff I remember is tainted by my own views- the things that I loved and enjoyed. Was I any good? Did I really work as hard as I thought?
I decided to ask Andrew, one of my favorite companions, and pretty much a perfect missionary- he worked hard, he prayed hard, he was spiritual and loving, and everyone loved him. He's also one of the few elders I'm still in contact with.
So I asked him what he thought of me as a missionary, and the conversation pretty much instantly derailed.
First, he mentioned that I was the reason he got through his mission. Me. Which was a shock to me. Since... he was awesome at everything. He is the very best missionary that I know. I guess Andrew has always had problems with stress; and our mission president (the ex-military officer) was not known for his kindly disposition. He was mostly known for inducing ulcers, and tearing people new holes, and being a hardnose.
Anyway, in this one interview that Andrew remembers, President was gearing up to lay into him about something, and he 'started turning green' (his words, not mine), President asked him if he was okay, and I casually diverted the conversation to something else with a "oh, we've been working in the heat, and he's not feeling well," and the interview completely changed. We spent the rest of the interview chatting and talking. Not about following rules, or what we could do better, but just chatting. He said that changed the way he saw President's interviews.
After that, we started talking about President Barry, and what a hardnose he was, and how no one ever really saw him. They saw the big scary drill sergeant, the one who kept everyone in line and booked no nonsense. They didn't see him the way I did- he was a funny guy. He had a great sense of humor, and I learned how exhausting it was for him- keeping all the leadership energetic and excited, keeping people motivated. He would get irritated when he would tell a joke and everyone would stare at him blankly. Mostly because they were scared to laugh, but also because people vilified him into someone with no sense of humor. Like it was a humor test or something, and if you laughed you failed!
President Barry was a stern man, but I loved him. I didn't understand why everyone was afraid of him. He was a good man, and he laughed and told jokes. I remember the interviews with Andrew- he would always go in with a fact sheet in hand- like a test. Other elders would be physically sweating, sitting waiting for interviews. I was never scared of him. I liked my mission president, and I always got the feeling that he liked me back.
He was a good man. His wife was wonderful. Someone had given me a necktie with sheep on it. Only, instead of all different colors or whatever, all of them were white sheep- except one. I jokingly always referred to myself as the 'black sheep,' and Sister Barry thought it was so funny that she went out and got Andrew a very similar tie- one with all black sheep and one white sheep.
She got me a stuffed bear for my last christmas out. A bear I still have today. And I decided that I wanted a wife like her, when I got married. Which is probably why it took me forever to get married, and probably why I ended up with an incredible woman - Sara.
My mission president told me not to settle down too fast- he told me to go out and try all sorts of things, and experience what life had to offer. I was shocked at the time (and I still am, when I consider what every other missionary has told me his last interview was like), but I've tried to live it.
So, coming back to my original question: What sort of missionary am I? I don't know. I wish there was a ruler for stuff like this, but I'm not aware of anything. I can't measure it by baptisms (I only baptised the one guy on my mission), or heights of leadership (equally unimpressive results), and I don't think you should. I'm probably biased on that point. I've always tried to measure missionaries as individuals- not he was better than this elder, or worse than that one, but measure each one by the same standard; the standard is: Do they love the people? Are they working for the glory of God? Are they full of themselves?
I don't know... there's something about the way I write these standards here that isn't quite right. It's not just mene mene teke uparsin, but I try and get a gut sense of who they are. Basically, I can't measure myself by those standards, because I'm trying to measure these missionaries to see if they're like me- or like the other elders I respected on my mission. Does every elder measure up to that standard? No. But I'm constantly surprised to find new elders out there who do. And those elders I like working with.
Anyway, I'm going to put this to bed. I think I was a good missionary. Andrew told me he considers the mission a preparation for life as a member-missionary. I've worked hard, as a ward missionary, and as a member of the church, and I think I've done my mission proud in that respect. I don't know if I was a good missionary, but I am proud to say that I served with some incredible men and women (mostly men). It was hard, but I had good mission companions, and a great mission president. And I loved all of those people.
I'm going to call it a success.
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8:27 am
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"Most of the change we think we see in life is due to truths being in and out of favor."
- Robert Frost
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| Thursday, June 25th, 2009
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11:11 pm - This just in:
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| Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
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9:35 am - "Here's Johnny!"
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| Thursday, June 18th, 2009
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11:47 am - Kansas - Carry On My Wayward Son
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Once I rose above the noise and confusion Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion I was soaring ever higher But I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man Though my mind could think I still was a mad man I hear the voices when I'm dreaming I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son There'll be peace when you are done Lay your weary head to rest Don't you cry no more
Masquerading as a man with a reason My charade is the event of the season And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean I set a course for winds of fortune But I hear the voices say
Carry on my wayward son There'll be peace when you are done Lay your weary head to rest Don't you cry no more
No!
Carry on, you will always remember Carry on, nothing equals the splendor Now your life's no longer empty Surely heaven waits for you
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8:15 am - Eights - via Tania
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8 things I did yesterday: 1. Got up early to exercise with Sara 2. Got my motorcycle working 3. Went to work, transporting old people 4. Wrote out some roleplaying stuff, planned games for the 27th 5. Drove my bike over to my parents (so it'll start in the morning) 6. Walked home 7. Had dinner with Sara- pancakes and bacon 8. Cuddled with Sara, fell asleep watching TV
8 Favorite TV shows 1. Shows that FOX cancels (Firefly, Sara Connor Chronicles) 2. Supernatural 3. Chuck 4. Burn Notice 5. Mythbusters 6. Everything on Discovery Channel (Life After People, Deadliest Warrior, Ancient Machines) 7. Man vs. Wild 8. Smallville
8 Favorite Eats 1. Sushi (pretty much anywhere) 2. Places I go with my food buddy from work 3. China Wok 4. In N Out 5. Red Robin 6. Eduardos 7. Punjab Palace (Indian Food) 8. Miguels
8 Things I am looking forward to: 1. This summer! 2. This weekend! 3. Having been married for a year! 4. Games this summer! 5. 4th of July Rodeo Trip! 6. Not going back to school until the end of September! 7. Going back to school and finally being a SENIOR! 8. Wheel of Time book coming out this fall!
8 Things on my Wish List: 1. For Sara to feel as loved as she possibly can. 2. For all of my nephews and nieces to feel safe and loved. 3. For Sara to get a job that she loves and feels good about 4. For Sara to write the great american novel 5. Moving into a house 6. Getting another kitten 7. Getting a puppy 8. Getting my leg fixed and then my teeth fixed!
8 Things I am Thankful For: 1. Sara 2. Sara 3. Sara 4. Mi familia (My Mom and Dad, Trav Jenn and little Mark, David Tania Alex and Gabriel, Sam Brig A and D, and especially that I get to hang out with my brother Dustin so often) 5. Sara's family (and all their wackiness) 6. Our friends (short list being Noah, Jad and Bailey, Dave M, Andy and Cailin, Jerry, Daniel, and Vic) 7. Our jobs (that we have something to keep hungry creditors at bay) 8. Church (I like our sunday school class)
I'm not tagging anyone, but thanks for listening, children!
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| Tuesday, June 9th, 2009
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1:18 pm - For my brother...
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| Thursday, June 4th, 2009
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10:14 am - Kwai Chang Caine is done wandering for now...
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David Carradine, (also known as Kwai Chang Caine from 'Kung Fu' and Bill from 'Kill Bill') was found dead in Thailand. :/
In addition to being a fantastic actor (recently killed by Uma Thurman and Jason Statham), he was an accomplished composer, musician, musical performer, songwriter, sculptor and a painter.
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| Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
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9:50 am - "Almost there..."
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Today is the last 'full' day of class. I finished my first presentation. YAY!
Of course, I didn't prepare a second presentation, so that sucks. Gives me something to work on at lunch.
Anyway, next week is finals- I can't wait to be done.
In the words of Higgins "Almost there..."
Oh, and I also didn't get the EMT job I applied for. :/
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| Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
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10:14 am
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"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."
- Krishnamurti
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| Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
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12:31 pm
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Today, I looked up one of the apartments I lived on my mission- in Auburn, NSW.
I did it in Google Maps, so I wandered the streets, looking at my favorite places.
The address is: 42 Chestnut Rd, Auburn, NSW, Australia. It's the red brick apartments on the north side of the street- the first door, with the iron security screen and the curtains in the window.
It's also the city where I lived near the mosque, learned about the Qur'an, and learned about Islam. It was a happy place.
The Auburn Gallipoli Mosque is on the corner of N Parade Road and Dartbrook, Auburn, NSW 2144. It's just north of the train track in Auburn. Google Maps doesn't find it, and I only was able to find it because I lived there and knew where it was.
Good memories.
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| Saturday, May 16th, 2009
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11:34 am
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"Just because your voice reaches halfway around the world doesn't mean you are wiser than when it reached only to the end of the bar."
-Edward R. Murrow
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11:11 am - Context...
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The quote is "The business of America is business," but it misses the point.
In a 1925 speech entitled 'The Press Under a Free Government,' president Calvin Coolidge ("Be cool with Coolidge!") said:
"After all, the chief business of the American people is business." But he later amends, "Of course, the accumulation of wealth cannot be justified as the chief end of existence. But we are compelled to recognize it as a means to well-nigh every desirable achievement. So long as wealth is made the means and not the end, we need not greatly fear it. An there never was time when wealth was so generally regarded as a means, or so little regarded as an end, as today."
"We make no concealment of the fact that we want wealth, but here are many other things that we want very much more. We want peace and honor, and that charity which is so strong an element of all civilization. The chief ideal of the American people is idealism. I cannot repeat too often that America is a nation of idealists. That is the only motive to which they ever give any strong and lasting reaction."
( Full Text of the Speech )
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| Friday, May 15th, 2009
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12:55 am
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| Sunday, May 10th, 2009
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12:22 am - "Harsh Truths, one gold!"
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The golden sun overhead bleached out colors of the brightest silks, and wrung water from the driest of travelers, but on the broad market street, it claimed a wide patch of the center of the road. The dusty street of the market was filled with sounds of every kind- braying of animals, laughter of children up to no good, merchants hawking wares at the top of their lungs, beggars chiding the population and the merchants for a spare coin. Occasionally a solider or a merchant guard would shout loudly to restore order, but the cacophony of noise of the street was such that the combination of sounds made it all but impossible to distinguish any one in particular. At one end of the street, the noise died down. Here, there was less protection from the sun, and therefore fewer customers. The merchants unluckily enough to be stationed here sat underneath awnings, fanning themselves and greedily eyeing customers who strayed too close to their stalls, coming to life as potential profit wandered close enough to touch. Even the beggars and children thinned out here, as the loss of crowds made anonymity a problem, and escaping from guardsmen or caravan guards even more unlikely so; here, at the deserted end of the street, there was a voice raised. It may have once been a handsome voice, a baritone trained to sing and tell stories, but the heat and the hard times had roughened it. It sounded strained, hoarse from yelling all day, and parched from thirst. The voice called out “Harsh truths, one gold!” Invariably, a customer with an extra coin to spare, or a merchant guard, or a bored passerby would stop and examine the man with the voice. He was thin, dirty, and tall, leading his appearance in ragged finery to be something akin to a scarecrow. His face was painted white, strange runes and red lips painted upon the blank canvas. His smile was sad, as were his eyes, but his voice raised tirelessly, “Harsh truths, one gold!” The rich would sniff disdainfully at the man down on his luck, but out of guilt, or for fear of being seen passing such a disgrace without tipping the hand of generosity, they would place a coin in the cup. Occasionally, a spoiled child would bother his nursemaid for a coin, and give it to the painted beggar. The man, voice whispering and eyes hard, would lean forward, as though to tell the child a secret. “You are right to fear your parents, for no matter how you fight it, you will become them.” To the governor, he would say “The rich have far fewer friends than the poor, and at a much higher price.” To the nursemaid, he would say “To the powerful, we are all fools and puppets.” The caravan guard would look into the tin cup, seeing only a bit of iron to mimic the jangle of coins at the bottom, and would sneer. Tossing a gold to the beggar, they would think, might be good game. “Beware,” he would tell them. “Your fate is decided by the greediest of men, who find that it’s cheaper to play the margin and hope that some of the guards are killed on each trip, than to keep enough on hand to pay all the men they hire at the start of the trip.” Eventually, someone would complain to the guards, and the newest recruit would be assigned to come investigate. The guard would toe him in the ribs, tell him to leave, and the painted beggar would stand and bow, “Forgive me, guardsman, but I am a merchant.” A merchant, the guards would invariably scoff. “I am a merchant, but my wares are sorrows. I have traveled far and wide to collect them, and am able to offer them as bargain rates.” The painted fool’s eyes would light, as though he were playing a great joke. “To prove it, I will provide you my services- this one time- for free.” Drawing a deep breath, and taking a bow, the beggarly jester would then proclaim “Fear for your children,” he would say, “for they will attempt, somewhat nobly, to go further than you have, to fulfill your dreams. They will fail.” On a very rare occasion, a group of adventurers would wander through this end of the market, and find the gilded vagabond. They would, of course, generously share of the reward of their toils, and the painted man would thank them. Before they turned to leave, he would tell the group; “All desire to be heroes -and this is a noble dream- but know this: For every hero of legend, there are hundreds of thousands who die, bloody, alone, and forgotten.” Never seen thus far was a customer who appreciated their purchase, but there were enough fools and braggarts to supply him with a modest income of coins. Come nightfall, the man would stand; counting through the coins he slipped into his pouch during the day, and totaling the amount in his head. Usually, he would have enough to cast a spell, summoning water and food. Sometimes he would have enough to repair his clothes, eldtrich light weaving worn fabric back to new and repairing leather of belts, items, and boots. Stomping his feet to settle them into his ‘new’ boots, the man would look at the last of the gold in his hand. If he had any, that was enough. Looking into the sky, he cast the last of his spells for the night, showering sparks into the air, in different colors and burst, entertaining any lucky enough to catch the sight for a few hours. When the magic of the sky lights faded into the night, the Harlequin would be long gone.
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| Thursday, May 7th, 2009
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10:06 am - D20 Future - The Adventures of Robot and Bear
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| Monday, May 4th, 2009
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2:31 pm
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Well, Shadowrun didn't go great this weekend.
I was exhausted, Sara was feeling antisocial, my Dad didn't want to play, and Hamilton couldn't make it, so Noah, Dustin, Trav, and I stared at each other around the table for a little while. We played Munchkin first instead (to start), and Dustin won after we killed Trav with a Plutonium dragon, but I was only like level 4, so... that didn't go that well for me.
Anyway, we finally got into Shadowrun, and Trav took off being team leader, deciding that a fake petition would be the best way to disrupt business for the plant they're supposed to be harassing. Noah, the charismatic one, wandered around getting signatures, and he was frustrated that he only got a couple hundred signatures after working all day, but he has never gotten signatures for a petition, so he has no idea that getting a couple hundred signatures in a day is pretty impressive. Everyone was tired, and I was a little disappointed to find my enthusiasm waning. I know they want to do things 'outside the box,' and figure out a way to do things that the writers weren't expecting, but I was too tired and exhausted from being sick to be able to roll with it.
So we called it a night for Shadowrun, and we were going to play Rockband or something, but my Dad was watching Legend of the Seeker, so we watched that for a few hours (it kinda sucks, but it's better than getting poked in the eye... moderately better), and then Noah took off.
Hopefully we'll get to play again when David comes out (at the end of the month), because it would be fun to have a full group that really wanted to play. I don't know, I was just really looking forward to this weekend, and it didn't end up being what I was hoping for.
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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4:15 pm - Noah almost made me twitter my drink all over the desk...
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